I wish I could wait a really, really, really long time to tell everyone that I am pregnant. Mainly because of my history of 3 miscarriages. I’m always on edge that when I finally share the news, something is going to happen. I’m going to lose my baby. I’ve been through it. And it sucks. […]

After realizing I was still being irrational..see last post…, I finally talked to Scott that night. I basically told him everything I was feeling about medicine, and keto, and therapy, and life. When I texted him and asked if he would go to therapy with me, I offered no explanation. I wanted to at least […]

I am having an extremely hard time dealing with the latest news with my uterus. I cannot recover from it. I think about it non-stop. It really is consuming my life right now. And I hate it. With all of the events in 2018, and especially in the past two weeks, my anxiety is spiraling […]

Monday happened. And I’d like a redo. God, this dreaded appointment. This dreaded doctors office. I was so over everything at this point. I am pretty sure I have been in that office more in the last 2 months than I have for all my pregnancies combined. Well, not really, but that’s what it feels […]

It’s been a couple of weeks since my last update on all of this blood work and hcg level bullshit. I ended up having to go to get blood work done two other times. It went from a 33 to a 25 to a 3. And they still wanted me to come back for more. […]

Well, it’s next week. And I still have pregnancy hormones. AKA my HCG levels are above 0. So aggravating. I went to the doctor on Thursday and they called me on Friday, around the same time as last week. “Hey Keisha, I just wanted to let you know that your HCG levels are a 33, […]

The day of my follow up doctor appointment in regards to my bicornuate uterus , I was actually off work. Briar had a well check that morning, then I had my appointment, and then I had a massage scheduled for a little later in the day. While I waited for my massage, I asked Scott […]

Today, I had my follow up appointment for my miscarriage. I had been anxiously awaiting this appointment. This week went by so slow. I was just so ready to hear, “You are not pregnant,” so I could move on. I felt my body had taken care of everything, but I just wanted and needed that […]

On January 18th, I found out I was going to miscarry for the third time. My heart was and still is shattered. I would not wish this feeling on anyone. It’s the absolute worst. When I left the appointment, I just cried. My heart was so broken. For the most part, my boss was already […]

It doesn’t even matter what week it is anymore. For the third time, THIRD TIME…I’m having a miscarriage. I can’t even comprehend what life is right now. I simply cannot believe I am going through this yet again. On January 16th, I started spotting at work. It was brown, and it was only when I […]

I’m pregnant. For the 5th time, I’m pregnant. But for the first time, it’s unexpected. And I’m a ball of fucking emotions for several reasons. First of all, this was not planned. We were not prepared for this at all. In particular, I was not prepared for this and, for the moment, it’s for extremely […]

9 WEEKS LEFT I had an OB appointment this week. I was very excited to go and see what they had to say about Briar’s position. Over the prior weekend, I had felt better, and I even felt her in my ribs a little bit, but I tend to overthink and make my mind think […]