2020

I’m sitting at home. ALONE. ALL ALONE. L I T E R A L L Y A L L A L O N E. And it’s been such a great day. I have done so much stuff today that has really filled my cup up to make me a whole human being again. As I […]

one year old

After a hectic start to Jolee’s life…where are we now? Well, I did not keep up month to month posts with Jolee. So, we are pretty much going to jump from 4 months old to now…1 year old. She’s perfect. And feisty. And funny. And I love her so much. As I was editing the […]

infant speech therapy

Throughout the whole Jolee’s Journey with the Bottle…I have remained cautiously optimistic about the whole situation. She’s taken a bottle and then not taken a bottle and then taken a bottle again. I hoped this was the end of everything. I hoped she was really going to take a bottle forever. Well, not forever, but […]

After a hectic start to Jolee’s life…where are we now? Well, I did not keep up month to month posts with Jolee. So, we are pretty much going to jump from 4 months old to now…1 year old. She’s perfect. And feisty. And funny. And I love her so much. As I was editing the […]

one year old

Throughout the whole Jolee’s Journey with the Bottle…I have remained cautiously optimistic about the whole situation. She’s taken a bottle and then not taken a bottle and then taken a bottle again. I hoped this was the end of everything. I hoped she was really going to take a bottle forever. Well, not forever, but […]

infant speech therapy

And just like that…my return to work was here…for the second time. August 12th came way to fast. Jolee was not doing great with a bottle, but she was at least getting some milk in her while I was away, so I was okay with it. I was working 8:00 a.m. – 3:30 p.m. I […]

syringe feeding

My worry about me losing my job began to increase as the day continued. When I got home from the speech therapy appointment and I got Jolee settled for a nap, I decided I was going to call HR to see what my options were. Whenever I called in, the HR manager wanted to put […]

baby bottle feeding

I am still in shock that I was granted an additional 6 weeks of paid time off. I absolutley cannot believe it. It is for sure the best case scenario and much better than me going back part time because I will recieve my full pay. Scott and I decided that we were going to […]

bottles

This week I was returning to work. And I was really freaking sad. I was not looking forward to going back to work at all. I think it was a couple of different things, but mainly knowing that Jolee was my absolute last baby made me sad. I just wasn’t ready to go back to […]

exhausted baby and mom

When I say never, I mean, absolutely 100% NEVER have I ever wanted to be a stay at home mom. This is ZERO judgement if you are a stay at home mom. I freaking bow down to you if you are a stay at home mom. You are the real MVP. I love my kids […]

strong daughter

Just like that another week has flown by. I cannot believe we are about to enter into week 4 postpartum already. Overall, nothing major has changed. Jolee still isn’t sleeping more than 3 hours a night, which is expected. I would like to tell you that it’s starting to wear on me, but I feel […]

baby sleep

Well, my glorious 4 hours stretchs of sleep came to a halt this week. I am fairly certain that Jolee is going through a growth spurt. I was aware that growth spurts happen between weeks 2 and 3, so I was ultimately prepared for it. They can last anywhere from a couple of days to […]

postpartum newborn

We left the hospital late afternoon on a Saturday. As we were leaving the hospital, I was concerned about my mental state. I told Scott that I just needed today to recover, but was that really all I needed? Just one day to get my shit together? On top of my extreme emotions from our […]

postpartum

After Jolee was delivered, we had to spend 2 1/2 days in the hospital. Day 1 was essentially great. I got to meet Jolee. After I gave birth, we did immediate skin to skin. I had a second degree tear so they went straight to sewing me up. Let me tell you, this is not […]

kangaroo care

I’m pregnant. For the 5th time, I’m pregnant. But for the first time, it’s unexpected. And I’m a ball of fucking emotions for several reasons. First of all, this was not planned. We were not prepared for this at all. In particular, I was not prepared for this and, for the moment, it’s for extremely […]