Week 27

I had an OB appointment this week. It was my glucose test and a checkup. Both of my glucose tests have been fine. I always had fruit punch, so it was good. They told me I would hear from them only if there was something bad to report…and there wasn’t anything bad to report, so I passed my glucose test. I had no doubts that I wouldn’t.

At the checkup, I had a moment where the lightbulb went off and everything finally made sense. I found out that Briar is in a transverse lie position. I honestly thought that she may have been due to the fact that I was only feeling her kick or move way down low and on either side of my hip. When the doctor confirmed she was, she pretty much told me that was the reason for all of the pain I have been having; lower back and round ligament pain. I wasn’t happy that she was in a transverse position, but I was happy that I wasn’t crazy for feeling all of these aches and pains that I didn’t have with Raelynn. I was also happy that CrossFit wasn’t causing it because I kept chalking it up to working out. Overall, the doctor wasn’t really concerned at all that she was in this position because there was still plenty of time to move. And I honestly and truly did realize that and comprehend that. I asked her how often she sees transverse lie babies this far along and she told me a lot. So, again, it made me feel better.

Now, onto my negative thoughts. Obviously first thought…C-Section. I get that a C-Section is not the worst thing in the world. As long as I have a healthy baby, that’s all that matters. But, I have experienced a natural, vaginal, uncomplicated birth, and I would like to be able to try that again. If she continues to be in a transverse position, I have to have a C-Section. This is a time where I wish the doctors wouldn’t even tell me what is going on. Ideally, I should have at least 13 more weeks for her to turn. Why even bring it up? Because I am a worrier and I know this is going to consume my thoughts until she turns and then when she hopefully does turn, I am going to be scared to death that she turns back. It’s going to be a never ending cycle until she is actually here.

Because there is still time for the baby to turn, I have not started doing any exercises yet to encourage her to turn. At this point, I’m just scared she would turn back or worse, what if there is reason that she is lying this way? What if I turn her and then something happens? So for now, I am going to wait. I don’t go back to the doctor until December 6th, but we will see how I feel about this situation week to week and then also whenever I go back.

Onto something happier, the same day I had the OB checkup, I got to see my favorite singer for the third time, Machine Gun Kelly. I was really worried about how I was going to feel because it was standing only. I put the kinesio tape on my back and my belly in hopes that would help me and I think it did. The only thing that really hurt was my feet. I probably could have picked a better pair of shoes to wear though. The concert was amazing. Oh, and I guess I should mention that it was mine and Scott’s first date night of the year. It was well needed. We had such a good time. It was something that we enjoyed together which made me/us so happy.

So this was all just one day out of the week. Overall, it was a good day. I’m carrying a healthy baby and I had a good night with my husband. I’ll take that anyday.

Only for the rest of the week to be pure hell. The company I work for is a European company that is French based. All of my big bosses are from France. The French culture and work environment is just completely different than the US. In some ways it’s good, and in some ways it’s bad. This week, I felt the wrath of the bad side. There are some issues at work that have got put on the back burner for a little too long and I basically got my ass handed to me by my French boss. He was here for 3 days and each day was more miserable than the prior day. In a couple of meetings, I was on the verge of tears. I honestly don’t even know how I held them back.

I tell Scott all the time that I was 1000000% meant to be pregnant at this time and period in my life otherwise I would be a raging alcoholic. I have not really wanted a beer until pretty recently, but shit, after the stressful days that I’ve been having, just open up a liquor bottle for me so I can drown my sorrows.

Update on potty training…still going good. We are definitely headed in the right direction. She still needs a constant reminder to go, but that’s okay for now. We are still learning.

CrossFit this week…once….only once and I hated myself. With everything going on at work, I just didn’t have time to make it. It sucked, but at least I went once. I unfortunately can see a bad pattern forming for November. There is just too much going on

Tuesday, November 8

Strength

RomWOD
Saddles and Straddles

MetCon – score was 146 reps

Two Evils
5RFR
1min – Wall Balls
1min – Burpees
1min – Rest

Until next time…

 

–The Kentucky Momma

 

 

Week 26

This week was a pretty good week.

First, we got to celebrate Halloween. We celebrate with all of our friends and I love it. I love hanging out with all my friends and I love seeing all of the kids together. It makes my heart so full. We all love each others children like our own. It’s the best feeling in the world. Here are a couple of pics:

 

The best part of my week was therapy. As I expected, there was just not enough time to go over everything I wanted to talk about. I even made a list to make sure I didn’t miss anything. I hadn’t been in almost 3 months so there was a lot to cover. But once I started talking about all of the issues with Scott and I, that was pretty much all we talked about. Which I am totally okay with. So, the best thing about her is that she is 100% unbiased. She will call me on my bullshit and tell me when I’m wrong. I want that from her, even if I don’t like what she has to say. When it came to this instance, she pretty much backed me on everything.

I started with pulling up my Week 18 blog post and pretty much reading it word for word. She asked how receptive Scott was to everything and I said he was, which was the truth. But, being at Week 26 and looking back, there were still issues. Yes, he had stopped going out so much, mainly because everyone had stopped going out so much because summer was coming to an end.

My main issue now was that he was always outside doing something. We have a much bigger yard now that does require more time consuming maintenance. Scott had an entire list of things he wanted to accomplish while it was still nice outside and I understood that, to a degree. In my mind, he had traded going out, for being outside all the time. I just somewhat took it as he didn’t really want to be around me. Even as I was telling the therapist about this, I realized it sounded crazy. I told her that I needed her to tell me if I was crazy or not for thinking this. She basically told me I was crazy. She has a way of reasoning things with me. She told me a story about another couple she had been counseling. Basically, it was like pulling teeth to get him to do anything outside. It would take the woman to initiate outside chores and then the husband would feel obligated to go outside and finish them or help her out with them. Even though I know this happens all the time, just her reasoning with me and talking me through it helps so much. She told me to pick my battles and to pretty much back off.

I guess why the outside thing was/is such a big deal to me is because he pretty much told me that he would not start on Briar’s room until he got all of his outside chores done while it still felt good. Again, I understood this to a point. There were very necessary things that needed to be accomplished outside. But, I really wanted Briar’s room done. All I needed Scott to do was 4 things. I needed him to take the border down, mud holes, sand the room, and then paint the room. The only thing that I could essentially help with is taking the border down because I suck at the rest. Point being, I kept telling him over and over that’s all I needed  him to do and then I would take over the rest. So, of course, I explained all of this to the therapist too. Then, she pretty much told me that I needed to stop talking to Scott like he was my child. I shouldn’t say that I needed him to do it. I should say I would really like for him to do certain things. Saying I need him to do something is like talking to a child. I didn’t realize that. But it made sense.

Scott always text me after therapy and asks how it went. I told him it went well, but I wanted to talk to him about my session in person. That night, we ended up going to dinner with Raelynn and we were able to talk about some things. I told him she backed me on everything I said regarding our initial argument, but everything after that she backed him. He was humble about it. By me admitting my fault, I think that helped us in general.

With all of that said, we are okay, I guess. We aren’t great, but we aren’t terrible. We still have a lot to work on.

Update on potty training…we are still going strong. She did much better this week. Some accidents, but no where near as many as last week. Still in pull-ups throughout the day and diapers when she sleeps. It amazing how much money we save not having to go through so many diapers. I love it.

CrossFit this week:

Monday, October 31

Strength – no issue with these
13 – Beat Swings EMOM

MetCon

GHOST – this just sucked. It was a long ass workout. I can still do double unders, but I choose not to because I pee all over myself. 797 reps
6RFR
1min – Cal Row
1min – Burpees – modified burpees – I am now stepping into a plank and jumping back up. my belly is in the way of stepping out, going to the floor, and then stepping back up. much easier to jump up.
1min – Double Unders – single unders
1min – Rest

Tuesday, November 1

Strength

RomWOD
Boo Ya

MetCon

161101A – score was 145 reps. did ring rows instead of pull ups…did planks instead of situps.
5min Thrusters #75/55
1min Rest
5min Pullups
1min Rest
5min Situps

Wednesday, November 2

Strength – as much as I do these now, I would expect for me to be really good at them, but I’m just not…

PLANK
1:20 ON
:40 OFF

MetCon – did step ups instead of box jumps; rowed instead of ran – finished in 17:25
4RFT
20 – Box Jumps 24/20″
20 – Pushups
400m Run
*REMINDER: You aren’t done until everyone is done. Support each other.

Thursday, November 3

Strength – this week I did tempo squats…most certainly did not do 60 squats. Worked up to 135#…didn’t feel terrible, so I consider that a win.

20 Rep Squats
45%, 55%, 65%

MetCon – I discovered that power movements are probably no longer going to be in my vocabulary. I did hang clean and jerks at 65#, and again, my newly modified burpees, stepping out into a plank and then jumping back up. Finished in 8:16.
15 – 12 – 9
Clean and Jerk #135/95
Bar facing Burpees

Until next time…

 

–The Kentucky Momma

Week 25

Well, we’ve had a sick little girl this week. And I believe teeth and allergies are the culprit. For that, I am thankful, because I know it could be a lot worse. Allergies have been pretty terrible all around this week for everyone. The Ohio Valley is known for allergies and will the onset of fall not far away, it’s just been a setup for disaster. Scott and I have also had the pleasure of having some small allergy attacks. Overall, it’s not been a fun week for us.

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Raelynn started running fever at daycare on Monday. I had to leave work to pick her up early. She didn’t take a nap that day and was being super whiney. I knew if she didn’t take a nap then she definitely wasn’t feeling well. I picked her up and we lounged on the couch until Scott got home. We played toys for a little, but her preference was hanging out on the couch and watching Mickey. She went to bed a little early that night, mainly because she didn’t take a nap. She slept all through the night. I had already decided since she had a rough day Monday, I was going to let her sleep in a little and just go into work a little later. I just had a gut feeling that she wasn’t going to feel much better.

My instincts were correct. Even though, she was acting okay for the most part, she had a fever of 101.6. I obviously couldn’t send her to daycare and I was actually in a position to be able to stay home with her that day, so I did. I finally was able to get a look in her mouth and sure enough, there was one new tooth that had finally broke the skin, and one that wasn’t far behind. On top of the teeth, she was hacking her lungs up, and her nose had a constant stream of snot running down her face at all times. After she ate breakfast, she literally sat next to me on the couch all day while I popped open my laptop and worked. Her fever never really broke that day. I was concerned that I was going to have to stay home with her again on Wednesday.

Thankfully, when I woke her up on Wednesday, she just had the snot streaming down her face, but no fever. But she kept telling me her teeth were hurting.

This whole week, she literally lived on allergy medicine and tylenol around the clock. Allergy medicine every 12 hours and tylenol every 4 hours. I hate pumping her full of medicine, but I would rather do that than the alternative of letting her be in pain. By the end of the week, her pain from teething finally eased up, but not her allergies.

It’s so frustrating and sad to watch her be sick and not be able to help her. I DREAD that day she is super sick, like with a stomach bug or something because I will probably cry my eyes out.

In other news…potty training had it’s ups and downs this week. For some reason, any day she came home from daycare she basically refused to go to the potty, but she would go at daycare. It was SO DAMN FRUSTRATING!!! BECAUSE the day she was sick and stayed home with me, she had ZERO accidents. ZERO. Z.E.R.O…so I knew she was capable of going, she just wasn’t doing it. Definitely felt the frustrations of potty training this week.I wanted to give up a lot this week. But we didn’t.

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Basically what we have still been doing is whenever I wake her up, I take her straight to the potty, sometimes she goes, and sometimes she doesn’t. Then, we put on a pull-up AKA big girl undies, and get dressed. She wears her pull-up all day at daycare, with the exception of her nap, then she puts a diaper on. During the week, we keep the pull-up on her when she gets home. On the weekend, especially if she is going to be home with us all day, we have some training underwear that we put on her. They have the feel of actual underwear, but they are padded.  The padded part does not absorb everything, but it does give us a little more time than actual cotton underwear. I just keep telling myself that she is not going to go to highschool in diapers. 🙂

So, something else somewhat monumental and/or not good also happened this week. I had an anxiety attack and I realized it as I was having it. That’s never happened before. In some of my anxious moments in the past, I could look back and say, yea, that was probably an anxiety attack or a panic attack. But this time, I realized it in the moment. I don’t really know if it’s a good or a bad thing if this happened. We were at a Halloween party and Raelynn just wasn’t feeling well. Plus it was past her bedtime. I was trying to hang out and have a good time, but I just couldn’t with her acting the way she was. I couldn’t focus on anything else except leaving. I can’t even remember what, but something set Raelynn off, something very simple that normally wouldn’t set her off and she just began crying uncontrollably. It was bad. And it just went straight through me. I was ready to go. I felt bad for it, but I was ready to go. Instead of saying I was ready to go, I just cried. I tried so badly not to, but I just couldn’t help it. I finally told Scott we needed to go. He was frustrated. But I couldn’t help it. We packed up and left and as we were going down the road, I just started crying. And he didn’t understand. I wasn’t even sure that I fully understood why, I just knew my emotions were not in check. It sucks. The whole situation sucks. We got home, Raelynn finally wound down, I finally put her to bed, and then I went straight to bed. I didn’t even want to talk about anything.

The next morning I felt better. I think Scott felt bad for me because he was pretty attentive to me. I didn’t complain about that. I still didn’t want to talk about anything, so I didn’t. And I was okay with that. I only briefly thought to myself that I knew yesterday was an anxiety attack. Overall, I feel like I can feel myself slipping back into my old self. I have a therapy appointment soon and I can’t wait to talk to her about everything

CrossFit this week:

Wednesday, October 26

Strength – with all of the back issues I have been having, I certainly did not do this. I did a modification of this. I did 5 squats and then I would add weight as I felt comfortable. I worked up to 135# and I just felt like I couldn’t do more than 5 at that weight. Such a complete mind fuck, especially when my max is 205#… I don’t know when I will be seeing that number again…

Back Squats
20 @ 40%, 50%, 60%

MetCon – So, burpees are getting weird for me. My belly is starting to stick out more and it’s just causing mobility issues more than anything. The modified burpees that I was doing were stepping out into a pushup position, going down to my stomach, and then stepping back up. I can no longer go down to my stomach, and it is no longer easy to step back up out of it because my belly is in the way. Now, I have modified to stepping out into a plank position and then jumping back up with a really wide stance. Makes my life so much easier. My score was 4+24 – no RX because of the modified burpees.
15min AMRAP
10 – Cleans
10 – Push Press
10 – Burpee over bar
#95/65

Thursday, October 27

Strength – we haven’t benched in a while, so I was curious to see how this felt. It actually didn’t feel bad. I just knew I wasn’t going to be packing the weight on the bar. So, my 10 rep max is 75#. Who knew I would ever need a 10 rep max?

10rep Bench Press Max
1 X 1

MetCon – finished this in 14:33. This time includes the rest.

1000m Row
5min Rest
1000m Row

Friday, October 28

Strength – yea so this sucked. You would think I would be good at this by now because I use them as a modification for anything ab related, but I’m not.

Plank
8rds
1min ON
30sec OFF

MetCon – overdid it on this one a little. Between the wall balls and the deadlifts, my back was toast. Not as bad as when I hurt it, not even close to that, but it still hurt. I finished 3 complete rounds.

10min AMRAP
21 – WallBalls 20/14
15 – Feet Above Waist
9 – Dead Lifts #155/105
*deadlifts cannot be dropped