I’m sitting at home. ALONE. ALL ALONE. L I T E R A L L Y A L L A L O N E.
And it’s been such a great day. I have done so much stuff today that has really filled my cup up to make me a whole human being again.
As I sit here in silence, I can’t help but reflect on what a year 2020 has been a what a year 2021 will be.
I just released a podcast episode on Monday about the lessons from 2020 and what I am either leaving behind in 2020 or taking with me into 2021.
One thing I didn’t talk about was limiting beliefs, negative self talk, and fear.
I am going to do the best that I can to leave ALL that shit behind in 2020. Because in 2021, I’m here to turn all the way the fuck up.
I have HUGE…BIG goals for 2021.
You can listen to my top 3 goals on next Monday’s episode release on 1/4/2021.
I had a call today with my business coach and I cried because I was literally so scared of my goals. Fear overtook me. The thoughts of:
“YOU ARE ‘TOO MUCH’ FOR PEOPLE TO HANDLE.”
“WHAT IF YOU FAIL????”
“WHO ARE YOU TO HAVE THESE BIG LOFTY GOALS??? YOU ARE NOT WORTH IT.”
“YOU ARE SIMPLY NOT ENOUGH…”
“YOU CANNOT DO THIS…”
What if being “too much” is okay? Because I will attract like minded people to me who are also “too much” and we can be “too much” together.
What if I succeed?
Who am I to NOT have these big lofty goals because I am deserving of everything that comes my way.
I am enough. And I am loved.
I can fucking do this.
This reframing of thoughts is not easy. I get it. I didn’t get here overnight. And I still struggle to think positively on a daily basis. I literally just cried to my business coach 3 hours ago because I was so scared and fearful.
But, we can do it. YOU CAN DO IT.
Do you have shit that you want to leave behind in 2020?
What do you want to carry forward or start fresh in 2021?