I live in fear every single day. Nonstop, constant, unrealistic, fucking annoying fear. The closest that I’ve come to detailing my fear and worry to is my therapist. So, what does a day in the life of my overthinking brain look like? Wake up at 5:00 a.m. to go workout. When dressed and teeth brushed, […]

I had a therapy appointment this past Tuesday. It was the first appointment since Scott and I had went together. There was a lot to talk about and fill her in on. She initially asked how I had been since I was on the verge of a mental breakdown the last time I was there. […]

After realizing I was still being irrational..see last post…, I finally talked to Scott that night. I basically told him everything I was feeling about medicine, and keto, and therapy, and life. When I texted him and asked if he would go to therapy with me, I offered no explanation. I wanted to at least […]

I am having an extremely hard time dealing with the latest news with my uterus. I cannot recover from it. I think about it non-stop. It really is consuming my life right now. And I hate it. With all of the events in 2018, and especially in the past two weeks, my anxiety is spiraling […]

For real. This happened. And for anyone that knows me, knows this is huge. I get it, it sounds so fucking dumb. But I am a creature of habit. I thrive on a schedule. And for me to break a schedule purposely…that’s a big freaking deal. First of all, I don’t even know what my […]

6 WEEKS LEFT I feel like I blink and the weeks go by. I thought it was supposed to be the complete opposite? Week 34 is recover from Christmas week. Clean up toys, clean up christmas decorations, put my house back together. We haven’t really had to do this in 3 years. And even when […]

I’m not really sure where this pregnancy has gone. I’m already down to 10 weeks left in this pregnancy. I honestly can’t believe it. The days and weeks just seem to literally fly by. With that said, I had a pretty monumental emotional breakdown on Wednesday of this week. I hadn’t really talked about it […]

Well, we’ve had a sick little girl this week. And I believe teeth and allergies are the culprit. For that, I am thankful, because I know it could be a lot worse. Allergies have been pretty terrible all around this week for everyone. The Ohio Valley is known for allergies and will the onset of […]

Starting off with Raelynn. I swear, everyday she learns something new. A new word, a new phrase, a new song. It’s truly amazing. I never knew how much I would enjoy watching her grow and learn. She talks in third person a lot. “Rae Rae’s cup.” “Rae Rae get on couch.” She somewhat uses the […]

I’m pretty sure this has been my longest blog break. And I totally need to blog, vent, let it out. Ready…here goes the timeline of events in the past two months: We now have our own house and we love it!!! It’s everything we’ve ever wanted plus more. I know that we are 100% where […]

Scott and I have started to have some marital issues. I feel like I have to disclose this first. Scott is and continues to be my number one supporter. I don’t know what I would do without him. He is one of the best guys ever. I feel like we’ve just been in a really […]

Scott and I have recently decided that it was time to sell our house and buy a new one. We are very quickly outgrowing our 1000 sq ft house. Little did I know, I could not get preapproved for a loan with a temporary job status. So, last Thursday, I approached my boss and asked […]