2020

I’m sitting at home. ALONE. ALL ALONE. L I T E R A L L Y A L L A L O N E. And it’s been such a great day. I have done so much stuff today that has really filled my cup up to make me a whole human being again. As I […]

one year old

After a hectic start to Jolee’s life…where are we now? Well, I did not keep up month to month posts with Jolee. So, we are pretty much going to jump from 4 months old to now…1 year old. She’s perfect. And feisty. And funny. And I love her so much. As I was editing the […]

infant speech therapy

Throughout the whole Jolee’s Journey with the Bottle…I have remained cautiously optimistic about the whole situation. She’s taken a bottle and then not taken a bottle and then taken a bottle again. I hoped this was the end of everything. I hoped she was really going to take a bottle forever. Well, not forever, but […]

I am finding myself consumed in anxiety, worry, and just really fucking overwhelmed within the past week. I almost somewhat feel like my old self again. And not the good, fun loving old self. The old self that was in a really bad place. So, I will just jump right into it. In my prior […]

Week 24 or Pregnancy 4

It didn’t happen to me this time. It’s happened again to one of my close friends. Another miscarriage. I just can’t believe it. It absolutely breaks my heart. I just don’t get why people have to go through this. I’ve known she was pregnant from the beginning. She text me right away and told me. […]

Week 23 of Pregnancy 4

Part 2 of Week 18 will be much happier than Part 1. I wrote a lot about Scott and I in part 1 and I almost feel it overshadowed how happy I am to have another healthy baby girl. I was relieved of so much anxiety after our anatomy scan. I feel like at this […]

Week 18 of Pregnancy 4

This is by far one of the happiest and saddest posts I think…I hope…that I will ever have to write. It’s more so going to be a vent session, so if you are not up to read a 3,000 word post, I suggest that you just leave now. I feel like I have to make […]

Week 18 of Pregnancy 4

The overwhelming anxiousness hit me like a brick wall this week. My anatomy scan is next week and I’m extremely nervous. This is just kind of the defining moment that will let us know if everything is okay. I’m not naive to this process. I realize, there are things they can miss and even if […]

Week 17 of Pregnancy 4

This was a busy week. But a very good week. I had my cousin’s baby shower at my house this weekend. A lot of extended family attended that had not seen my house yet so it was nice to show everyone the house. I did some small, crafty decorations for the party. My aunt and […]

Pregnancy Week 15