My anxiety has returned this week. I don’t know what the deal is. So far for 2019, I am finding that the end of the month is a huge trigger for me. I don’t know why, or what is causing it, but just like January, I am anxiety ridden yet once again. I’m not focused. […]

Scott and I’s talk did not heal all wounds, but we each talked and we each said our piece. Now onto hopefully fixing it. I knew my therapist would be a huge help for me in helping me decide if I was bat shit crazy or if my relationship was really spiraling. I plopped my […]

Week 13 was a very busy week. This week starts a lot of business travel for me. I am going to have to be out of town on four separate occasions from now until the end of the year. I am thankful that I am at least starting to feel a little better now. I’m […]

I live in fear every single day. Nonstop, constant, unrealistic, fucking annoying fear. The closest that I’ve come to detailing my fear and worry to is my therapist. So, what does a day in the life of my overthinking brain look like? Wake up at 5:00 a.m. to go workout. When dressed and teeth brushed, […]

On one of mine and Scott’s date night we FINALLY had the dreaded talk. To have more kids…or…to not have more kids. Scott is 100% adamant that he does not want any more kids. He has had the stance since the miscarriage, so it should not be a surprise to me. BUT, I am normally […]

It’s been almost 3 months since I have posted anything about the kids, so time for an update! Raelynn will be 4 in less than 1 month. **cue the tears** Briar is 18 months old. I swear, I blink and they have aged by a month. Raelynn is my cute little ginger. Her curiosity and […]

I had a therapy appointment this past Tuesday. It was the first appointment since Scott and I had went together. There was a lot to talk about and fill her in on. She initially asked how I had been since I was on the verge of a mental breakdown the last time I was there. […]

After realizing I was still being irrational..see last post…, I finally talked to Scott that night. I basically told him everything I was feeling about medicine, and keto, and therapy, and life. When I texted him and asked if he would go to therapy with me, I offered no explanation. I wanted to at least […]

I am having an extremely hard time dealing with the latest news with my uterus. I cannot recover from it. I think about it non-stop. It really is consuming my life right now. And I hate it. With all of the events in 2018, and especially in the past two weeks, my anxiety is spiraling […]

Well, it’s next week. And I still have pregnancy hormones. AKA my HCG levels are above 0. So aggravating. I went to the doctor on Thursday and they called me on Friday, around the same time as last week. “Hey Keisha, I just wanted to let you know that your HCG levels are a 33, […]

For real. This happened. And for anyone that knows me, knows this is huge. I get it, it sounds so fucking dumb. But I am a creature of habit. I thrive on a schedule. And for me to break a schedule purposely…that’s a big freaking deal. First of all, I don’t even know what my […]

My anxiety is in OVERDRIVE… The main trigger – Raelynn started soccer. And I feel like such an asshole mom that this triggered my anxiety. I should be so excited that Raelynn started a sport. And I literally dread it. It’s simple, really. My schedule changed and it literally fucked my whole world up. And […]