After a hectic start to Jolee’s life…where are we now? Well, I did not keep up month to month posts with Jolee. So, we are pretty much going to jump from 4 months old to now…1 year old. She’s perfect. And feisty. And funny. And I love her so much. As I was editing the […]

My anxiety has returned this week. I don’t know what the deal is. So far for 2019, I am finding that the end of the month is a huge trigger for me. I don’t know why, or what is causing it, but just like January, I am anxiety ridden yet once again. I’m not focused. […]

Scott and I’s talk did not heal all wounds, but we each talked and we each said our piece. Now onto hopefully fixing it. I knew my therapist would be a huge help for me in helping me decide if I was bat shit crazy or if my relationship was really spiraling. I plopped my […]

Okay, so it turns out that I’m a little bit bat shit crazy and my relationship is quite spirialing down the drain. I debated (still debating) on keeping part 1 of this post alive. I wrote it when I was angry and sad as fuck. Like, I was all up in my feelings when I […]

I’m really not sure if I’m just bat shit crazy, or if my relationship is spiraling down the drain. I really feel like my relationship is spiraling down the drain. I don’t even know how much detail I need to go into. All you have to do is read back a couple of weeks…and see […]

I am about to share some really personal stuff with y’all in regards to my relationship with my husband. I have fought with myself for months on if I should share this or not. Does anyone really WANT to read about my relationship? Will people think I’m crazy? Will people think Scott is a bad […]

After an eventful week last week, I am trying to recover, mentally and emotionally. It was a big cluster fuck of a week. Even though the events of last week are still pretty recent, Scott and I are recovering well. As we always do. It’s like we go through these huge curves of doing really […]

I would like to tell you that Week 10 was sunshine and rainbows, but I’d be lying to you. After a week of feeling pretty okay, I was quickly (and thankfully) reminded that I am in fact still growing a baby. I was nauseous for 3 days straight. And just flat out feeling like shit. […]

Believe it or not, in the month of June, Scott and I had two…T W O date nights in June. I don’t even know who we are. We had good date nights. They were so needed. At the end of May, I was feeling really down about Scott and I. There just wasn’t a whole […]

I had a therapy appointment this past Tuesday. It was the first appointment since Scott and I had went together. There was a lot to talk about and fill her in on. She initially asked how I had been since I was on the verge of a mental breakdown the last time I was there. […]

As I’ve said many times in 2018, this year has been really tough on me, personally. I’m trying really hard to work through it, but I just feel like I always get knocked down. Throughout all of my personal issues, it’s also been tough on my marriage. Honestly, it’s not just this year that has […]

I am having an extremely hard time dealing with the latest news with my uterus. I cannot recover from it. I think about it non-stop. It really is consuming my life right now. And I hate it. With all of the events in 2018, and especially in the past two weeks, my anxiety is spiraling […]