Week 16 was another week that I was looking forward to, but not looking forward to.   I had another OB appointment. In my heart, I knew there wasn’t anything wrong. But, my head was telling me to still be cautious. Don’t get too attached, because you never know. I was seeing a different doctor […]

Week 12 is another week that I have been waiting for and also dreading. I had an OB appointment to see if there was a heartbeat. I honestly felt in my heart that there was going to be a heartbeat, but I couldn’t shake the feeling of her putting that Doppler to my stomach and […]

This was the week that we were going to find out if we have a baby or not. I didn’t need the ultrasound to tell me there was a baby in there. I knew there was. All of my symptoms told me so. And, behold, we have a baby. All the measurements were right where […]

Another week…and I’m still pregnant. I honestly can’t believe it. But I’m happy. This week I had to go to the doctor at some point and follow up again with my HCG levels. I was at the doctor Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday last week…so, the last place I wanted to be was this damn doctor’s […]

I’M PREGNANT. For the 6th time. And I also think I’m miscarrying. For the 4th time. Jesus, y’all. I just don’t even know where to start. This was, yet, another unexpected pregnancy. I had a feeling I was pregnant. I can’t explain, it was just a feeling in the pit of my stomach. I went […]

We are more than half way through the year, and I find myself reflecting back on prior posts. I post a lot of things for accountability. If I put it out there, I have to do it, right? Ha, Nope. So, here I am, about to be vulnerable as hell and tell you everything that […]

I had a therapy appointment this past Tuesday. It was the first appointment since Scott and I had went together. There was a lot to talk about and fill her in on. She initially asked how I had been since I was on the verge of a mental breakdown the last time I was there. […]

After realizing I was still being irrational..see last post…, I finally talked to Scott that night. I basically told him everything I was feeling about medicine, and keto, and therapy, and life. When I texted him and asked if he would go to therapy with me, I offered no explanation. I wanted to at least […]

Monday happened. And I’d like a redo. God, this dreaded appointment. This dreaded doctors office. I was so over everything at this point. I am pretty sure I have been in that office more in the last 2 months than I have for all my pregnancies combined. Well, not really, but that’s what it feels […]

It’s been a couple of weeks since my last update on all of this blood work and hcg level bullshit. I ended up having to go to get blood work done two other times. It went from a 33 to a 25 to a 3. And they still wanted me to come back for more. […]

The day of my follow up doctor appointment in regards to my bicornuate uterus , I was actually off work. Briar had a well check that morning, then I had my appointment, and then I had a massage scheduled for a little later in the day. While I waited for my massage, I asked Scott […]

Today, I had my follow up appointment for my miscarriage. I had been anxiously awaiting this appointment. This week went by so slow. I was just so ready to hear, “You are not pregnant,” so I could move on. I felt my body had taken care of everything, but I just wanted and needed that […]