I’m sitting at home. ALONE. ALL ALONE. L I T E R A L L Y A L L A L O N E. And it’s been such a great day. I have done so much stuff today that has really filled my cup up to make me a whole human being again. As I […]
After a hectic start to Jolee’s life…where are we now? Well, I did not keep up month to month posts with Jolee. So, we are pretty much going to jump from 4 months old to now…1 year old. She’s perfect. And feisty. And funny. And I love her so much. As I was editing the […]
Throughout the whole Jolee’s Journey with the Bottle…I have remained cautiously optimistic about the whole situation. She’s taken a bottle and then not taken a bottle and then taken a bottle again. I hoped this was the end of everything. I hoped she was really going to take a bottle forever. Well, not forever, but […]
Spoiler alert…I was pregnant for all of week 39. Yes. ALL OF WEEK 39. Here are some things that I tried this week to help naturally induce my labor and/or get baby in the right position. I bought an exercise ball and I have been sitting, bouncing, doing circles, doing figure eights, ALL THE THINGS. […]
If you remember from Week 38, my doctor said the baby was in a posterior position. I googled it. WHY? I got the majority of my information from spinningbabies.com which has a freaking plethora of information about getting your baby into an ideal position for labor. I honestly wish that I had read this much […]
It’s April. I feel like this could potentially be the month that Jolee is born. This makes me happy and also makes me anxious as hell. Overall, I will be happy to not be pregnant anymore. But lately, I have been straight up scared to death of labor. I know I have been through it […]
This week, we had a lot of good shit going on. I had another appointment with the OB as well as another follow up ultrasound. I was looking forward to it and dreading it all at the same time. I was hoping little miss was back down to measuring a normal size as opposed to […]
It’s the beginning of March. And I feel like I am getting a fresh start. For the moment, my anxiety is back in check. I have refocused. And I’m feeling normalish. Whatever normalish is these days. I had a Self-Care Sunday this past Sunday. I went back and visited the salt cave. To refresh everyone’s […]
My anxiety has returned this week. I don’t know what the deal is. So far for 2019, I am finding that the end of the month is a huge trigger for me. I don’t know why, or what is causing it, but just like January, I am anxiety ridden yet once again. I’m not focused. […]
The week I feel like I am still doing really well. It’s a busy week for us and I feel like there is a lot happening and a lot to tackle. We started potty training Briar. Raelynn and I had a day to ourselves. I had a baby doctor appointment this week with an ultrasound. […]
This week was a really hard week for me for a couple of different reasons. First, Raelynn’s night waking continued. Second, I haven’t talked a lot about it because it’s not something I enjoy, but I’ve been working a part time job and I hate it and I’ve wanted to quit from the moment I […]
This week, our little Briar officially turns 2 on January 22. It’s really weird, but I feel like she’s been 2 for a long time. I cannot believe I have a 4 year old, a 2 year old, and in 15 weeks, I will have one more. What the fuck were we thinking? I haven’t […]
Scott and I’s talk did not heal all wounds, but we each talked and we each said our piece. Now onto hopefully fixing it. I knew my therapist would be a huge help for me in helping me decide if I was bat shit crazy or if my relationship was really spiraling. I plopped my […]
I am about to share some really personal stuff with y’all in regards to my relationship with my husband. I have fought with myself for months on if I should share this or not. Does anyone really WANT to read about my relationship? Will people think I’m crazy? Will people think Scott is a bad […]
It’s the day of the anatomy scan. I can’t believe it’s already here. The night/morning of, I couldn’t sleep. I tossed and turn all night until I eventually just got on my phone and tried to scroll myself through social media back to sleep. It didn’t work. My brain was processing life at 2:30 a.m. […]
