I had another OB appointment this week. It was nothing super exciting. They were just checking Jolee’s heartbeat and checking in.
I proceeded to tell her I was ready for her to get the hemorrhoids off my ass right that second.
Seriously though, I asked her everything about surgery, side effects, recovery time…and she said she didn’t recommend it unless they were bleeding and ruptured. Thank the freaking lord that I had not had that happen yet…hopefully I never have that happen.
She told me the surgery was easy, but the recovery time was really bad. I honestly couldn’t imagine having this surgery right after having a baby and then trying to be a function human being and mother. THEN, my selfish self will not want to wait until I’m healed, just to have another surgery because I am going to be ready to get back into the gym as soon as I can.
So, for the moment, surgery is not an option. I just have to keep doing what I’m doing to keep them in check.
Scott has been really helpful towards the end of my pregnancy.
He doesn’t personally know how bad my hemorrhoids are, but I think he gets the idea because all I want to do is sit in the recliner with my feet up and that is so not me. I am a do-er. I like to do things around the house and keep moving. But, for my sake, I truly cannot be doing that right now.
I’m at the point in my pregnancy where I am starting to feel pretty useless and it’s the worst feeling in the world. I think there are a lot of different factors that play into this.
I look back at prior pregnancies and situations and circumstances…
When I was pregnant with Raelynn, I had no other kids. I was 26. If I wanted to sit down and relax, I had no issue doing this. I did not work out this pregnancy at all and I had no desire too. I didn’t start my CrossFit regimen until I was 6 months postpartum with Raelynn.
When I was pregnant with Briar, I had a toddler to chase around. I was 28. I didn’t have the option to sit down and relax because toddlers don’t give a fuck. Working out was really easy with this pregnancy. It just came naturally. Nothing felt forced.
This pregnancy with Jolee, I have 2 kids to chase around. I am 31. I definitely don’t have the option to sit down and relax because a 2 year old and 4 year old definitely don’t give a fuck if you are pregnant. Physically and mentally I feel like I’ve had to force myself to work out this pregnancy. My whole body hurts a lot. Everything seems harder. I hate this feeling because I love working out.
I know I am my own worst critic, but I don’t think I ever took into consideration how all of these things would play into how I feel, physically, emotionally, and mentally.
Pregnancy is hard.
I will honestly be so glad when I have Jolee because I know for a fact it’s my last pregnancy. I feel like each pregnancy has gotten harder and I am just ready to be done.
Wednesday, March 27
Strength
Box Squat
1×4 @ 45% = 105#
1×4 @ 50% = 120#
1×4 @ 55% = 130#
1×4 @ 60% = 140#
4×4 @ 65% = 150#
Metcon
12 min AMRAP
400m row
10 hang power cleans 35
20 mountain climbers
My score was 2+1. This will probably be the last time I am able to mountain climbers because I felt as though my stomach was coning, which is not good.
Friday, March 29
Strength
Snatch Push Press based on Snatch Max
2×4 @ 50% = 50#
1×4 @ 60% = 60#
1×4 @ 65% = 65#
1×4 @ 70% = 70#
Metcon
5 rounds
10 snatches 45
5 wall balls shots, no squat
5 push-ups
My score was 7:24.
