The week I feel like I am still doing really well. It’s a busy week for us and I feel like there is a lot happening and a lot to tackle.
We started potty training Briar.
Raelynn and I had a day to ourselves.
I had a baby doctor appointment this week with an ultrasound.
I am practicing more self care because I have a pregnancy massage that is scheduled for the week.
I don’t even know who the fuck I am right now. But it’s a good, who the fuck are you, not a bad like, what the fuck are you doing with your life.
POTTY TRAINING
Shit, I was really dreading this. I felt like I was just asking for my anxiety to spiral back out of control for doing this. But, I knew if we didn’t start before Jolee came, then I was never going to start. I had to set my expectations low, which was going to be hard because Raelynn set the expectations high. She potty trained so well. But, I just KNEW Briar was going to be a different story.
We put her in pullups instead of going straight to underwear. I feel like this will hinder her process because her pullup will absorb her pee so she won’t care if she’s wet, but, again, it’s a start. We also got her a potty watch for Christmas. We used one with Raelynn and it worked well. Whenever it goes off, it sings a song and lights up in hopes that it will get them excited to go to the potty.
Between both of these things, she maybe goes once or twice a day.
Again, it’s a start. I’m not expecting miracles.
She hates going to the potty though. For her, it’s such an inconvenience. Whenever her watch goes off, she is basically pissed off because it interrupts whatever she is doing at the time. I have found myself frustrated a couple of times, but nothing over the top. I just have to keep reminding myself that it’s going to take longer with her and I just have to be okay with that. I wish I just had a weekend at home to put her in underwear or go naked so she could go more. But it would almost be a backwards process because whenever she went to daycare, she would be back in pullups. Damn you, Raelynn, for setting the bar high.
Speaking of Raelynn, we had a day to ourselves.
It was a reward for her. We ended up getting more night lights and told her that if she had to get up in the middle of the night, the hallway and the bathroom would both be well lit so she wouldn’t have to come in my room and wake me up. I told her if she did this for 7 nights straight that I would take her out to lunch and then we would go do something else. Win for me, win for her.
She ended up following through with her part which also meant I slept better. She was totally okay with going to the bathroom in the middle of the night without coming in our room since we added the additional night lights.
For lunch, we went to Arby’s of all places because that’s where she wanted to go. Then we met a friend and her son at the circus. I think it was good for Raelynn to have some one on one time in general because it’s already hectic at home and it’s only going to get worse. I am going to try and schedule some more time alone with her and I encouraged Scott to do the same.
Because of my uterine abnormality, my doctor scheduled additional ultrasounds when I started to get toward the end of the pregnancy to monitor growth and fluid levels.
We took Raelynn to this appointment with us. She wasn’t really into the ultrasound, but she said her favorite part was hearing the heartbeat.
The doctor appointment overall went well. I was really uneasy about getting ultrasounds this late in pregnancy because I have never had one this late and then I just had a feeling that C-Section was going to get brought up.
And I was right.
At 28 weeks, I am measuring 29.4 weeks which is 1.5 weeks ahead. They told me the baby was measuring in the 86th percentile for weight. I am so leary of the weight that is predicted by the ultrasounds because I have heard of so many weights being off. They even tell you the weights can be plus or minus 7 ounces which is a lot when it comes to a baby.
The doctor told me if the baby were to get into the 99th percentile, then they would talk C-Section. I knew with my condition that this could potentially be an option for birth, I had just hoped it wouldn’t have to even brought up. I realize it’s not the worst thing in the world. If it brings me a healthy baby into the world, then I really cannot care about this. It’s just not an ideal situation.
Of course, she is currently in the optimal position of head down. I would just hate to give birth, however that may be, and realize that I could have had the birth that I envisioned. Based on previous history, I realize things don’t always go as planned.
But I’m a control freak, and I like being in control.
And labor and birth are the last things in the world that I have control over. She will come when she is ready and she will come however she is supposed to, whether that be via C-Section or vaginally.
Lastly, and most importantly, I had the BEST pregnancy massage ever.
I told y’all, I’m trying so hard to practice more self care. For my birthday this year I asked for gift cards or money so I could get me a pregnancy massage. And I did just that. I would like to get at least one more before I give birth because it will probably be months before I am able to get a massage in general again.
Monday, February 11
Strength
Power Clean
2×2 @ 50% = 65#
1×2 @ 65% = 75#
1×2 @ 75% = 85#
2×2 @ 80% = 95#
3×1 @ 86% = 105#
I did not go off my actual percentages. I just added weight as it felt comfortable. Again, no longer pulling from the floor due to my big ol belly. Everything is from the hang.
Metcon
4 rounds
3 min AMRAP
3 power cleans (no touch and go) 155/105
5/3 strict pull ups
8 KB snatches 53/35
8 rounds. Modified cleans down to 85# and from the hang. Ring rows instead of pull ups. Snatches at 25#. Probably could have done 35#, but my back has been hurting.
Wednesday, February 13
Strength
Strict Press
Find 3RM – worked up to 80#
Metcon
30-20-10
Calorie row
DB clean and jerk 2x 50/30
My time was 14:45. Modified DB Clean and jerk to 20#.
