This week is the week that we’ve been waiting for.
And behold…we have a baby with a heartbeat.
The appointment overall was a little uneasy for me and I’ll explain why.
Whenever I went in on January 10th, according to my last missed period, I would have been 8 weeks. According to date of conception it was 7 weeks 4 days.
I actually felt really good about the appointment. I wasn’t nervous or anxious. I was really okay.
The ultrasound tech proceeded with an abdominal ultrasound first. She immediately made the comment that I was really early in the pregnancy. To date, I don’t think I’ve ever gotten an ultrasound before 8 weeks, so that was true. But everything did look really small. Like, really, really small. I couldn’t even make anything out on the ultrasound. I could tell there was a sac, but I couldn’t tell really tell if there was something in it. To be clear, I could see something in the sac, I just has no idea what it was. It just looked like a blob.
So, she quickly suggested that we do a transvaginal ultrasound. I was happy to oblige. At this point I started to get nervous. All the bad thoughts were popping my head. I turned to Scott and I told him I wasn’t sure how good this would end. He just reassured me that everything was going to be okay. Overall, my demeanor was still very calm. I was really surprised at how well I was maintaining my composure.
I really don’t know how else to say this, but when she was “in”..LOL…I still couldn’t see anything. Then I realized she was doing other measurements of other things. When she finally got to the sac, I could see the baby and a little flicker where the heart was. For some reason I still did not feel relieved. This didn’t look like any of my other ultrasounds at all. Then she told me how far along I was measuring…6 weeks and 4 days. I was shocked and still as I write this, I have no idea how it’s possible.
A little insight…
On my previous 4 pregnancies, I am fertile and ovulate the day after my period. So, I ovulate extremely early compared to most people. All facts considered, I was probably around 40ish weeks with my two successful pregnancies as opposed to 38 weeks because I ovulate so early. Even with the unsuccessful pregnancies, I got pregnant the day after my period.
The first day of my last period was November 15. My period lasted for about 5 days. The only possible time this baby was conceived was December 3rd. First of all, that’s not the day after my period stopped, so flag number 1. Based on the conception date, I ovulated one entire week AFTER we had sex? What type of sense does this make? I was and still am so confused.
Because I am a factual person and none of the above makes sense at all, I am convinced something is not okay. I have been correct on my dates all other times, so why would it be different this time?
Yes, I get it. Every pregnancy is different. But, it just doesn’t make sense. IT JUST DOESN’T MAKE SENSE.
After the ultrasound, we go and talk to the doctor. She assures me that everything is fine and my dates are just off and I have no reason to worry. We have a baby with a healthy heartbeat for 6 weeks and 4 days. Not easing my concern, I just moved on from the subject. She then told me there was something she wanted me to look at. I have a subchorionic bleed by the baby. If you look at the left ultrasound picture you will see a big black space to the right of the baby. That’s it. It’s apparently really common in the first trimester and poses no threat to myself or the baby. Basically It’s a sac of blood in your uterus. It goes away one of two ways, the body reabsorbs it, or you bleed it out. So if I were to bleed, it wouldn’t necessarily mean I’m having a miscarriage. It could be this subchorionic bleed going away. So, I’m at least glad that I know about it. She wants me to come back in in 2 weeks to see if the baby is growing appropriately and to keep an eye on the bleed. I will get another ultrasound and another doctor visit. I’m happy about this.
Now I’m in another waiting period to see if everything is okay again. I know I should be happy that we saw a baby and saw and heard the heartbeat, but my anxious self can’t get away from the fact that something is going to go wrong. I’m a worrier by nature. I just want everything to be okay. I just want a healthy baby and healthy pregnancy.
Until next week…
–The Kentucky Momma