I realized that through all of my postpartum depression, anxiety, Raelynn filled posts that I have neglected talking about CrossFit.
Ever since I started my new job, I was struggling BIG time to make it to my CrossFit box. I tried evening and morning classes and nothing was working. Because of the location of my new job, I was driving 100+ miles a day if I went to the gym. So, instead, I was making excuses not to go. I didn’t feel like getting up at 4:30 a.m. to start my day. Driving to the gym was a literal back track. It was the opposite direction of my house and my job. I knew as soon as I started making excuses, it was time for a change. I had to change something or else I was going to quit completely and I didn’t want to do that. Luckily for me, there is a CrossFit box right around the corner from my new job. It was pretty much a no brainer to make the switch. I plan on being at this job for a while so I wanted to make the switch to accommodate me. I started at my new box this week and I like it. I didn’t think I would hate it, but change in general is just scary, at times. I can get up later, which is always a plus. I have more time time for things in the evenings. It was definitely a good change.
While I was on Pinterest today, I came across an article that is so accurate, its’ scary about the emotions of CrossFit. Click Here to see the page. In summary these are the emotions of CrossFit as written by Lea Genders in her blog, Running with Ollie:
1. Fear and Dread:
This is how I feel when I read about the upcoming WOD on my box’s Facebook page. I often worry think about the WOD for up to eight hours before actually doing it. This is kind of absurd considering the WOD itself only lasts between 7-20 minutes. This is where I have to learn to fight my brain and push past the negative thoughts that tell me I’d rather go home and watch prime time television (or sleep in). Of course it is going to be hard. It is supposed to be hard. That is kind of the point.
Once I arrive at the Box, I instantly feel better. Everyone is very friendly and supportive. It is probably the least intimidating gym environment I have ever been in, as far as the other athletes personalities are concerned. There are more than enough people around willing to help build you up, to give you pointers and the confidence you need to get through it. I even start to get this false hope that it won’t be that bad.
3. Pain & Suffering:
This is how I frequently feel during the WOD. I sometimes actually worry that I might die (or puke). At times I have seriously contemplated throwing down the barbell and running out the back door in tears to never return again (I would never actually do that). I feel pain. I am suffering. I am making faces that would scare small children (no one take my picture please). I am paying someone money to feel this kind of pain? What is wrong with me? I remind myself this is all making me stronger. I am doing this on purpose.
4. Total Elation:
Immediately following the 7-20 minutes of pure hell, I feel a top-of-the-world elation that is hard to describe. It is kind of like a runners high, but better. I may be laid out on the floor while I am feeling this, but even if I finished in very last place, I pretty much feel like a total bad-ass. These are probably some of the happiest minutes of my day (outside of the time I spend with hubby).
This is the part when I go home and all I can talk about (to my poor Hubby and anyone else who will pretend to listen) is CrossFit. I rehash every miserable minute with such enthusiasm, one might think I was crazy. Wait, I’m confused, it sucked? So why are you so happy? I am very excited at this point to face the next challenge. I imagine my future-self doing unassisted pull-ups, handstand push-ups, and back squatting my own body weight! I can’t wait for the next class…until the next day’s WOD is posted on their Facebook page.
Literally, EVERY. SINGLE. EMOTION. EVERY. SINGLE. WORD. of this article is SOOOO accurate.
Very simply put, CrossFit has been one of the best things that has happened to me during all of my low points. It has helped bring me back up and maintain my happiness. I’m very thankful for everyone I’ve encountered in doing CrossFit so far.
–The Kentucky Momma