How do you know when the time is right?

Again….I find myself lacking writing in my blog. I think everyday that I need to, but I just never get around to it.

Update from my last blog:

  1. I was “officially” told my last day would be July 31st, 2015.
  2. We are still house hunting
  3. Our house is officially on the market
  4. Raelynn is changing day cares
  5. My life is coming to an end..

…Not really, but sometimes I feel like my life is so chaotic and I bring it on myself.

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First bullet point, I was told officially through a text message when my last day would be. Cool. I am scared to death that I’m going to be jobless. The way interviews go these days, it’s like a 4 month long process. I actually went on an interview that was really good. I really liked the people and the company, but the money just wasn’t right. It really got me down. The people i interviewed with even told me I was their top candidate. The CEO only gave them approval for a certain amount and of course he was on vacation. They are going to reevaluate whenever he comes back on 7/13, but they are pursuing another candidate.

Second bullet point, we are having no luck house hunting. We found one that we really liked, but the neighborhood is holding me back. I’m looking to upgrade in all shapes and forms when it comes to buying a new house. I want a slightly bigger house, i want a much bigger yard, and I want to live in a better neighborhood. We don’t necessarily live in bad neighborhood now, there are just certain neighbors i don’t care to be around anymore. We have been to this particular house twice now and our realtor keeps asking me what is holding me back. I told her i couldn’t put my finger on it, but something was telling me no. She asked what my gut said, and i very instinctively said no. She said, there’s your answer then. Maybe I’m making excuses, but there is just something about that house that is telling me, no.

Third bullet point, yes, we still put our house on the market even considering all of the above. Our contingency plan is if we sell our house quicker than we find one, we will move in with my in laws. While the situation is not ideal, it is the best plan. We’ve only had one person come look at our house so far, but that’s okay. because i’m honestly in no hurry to get rid of it unless we find a house that I just feel like I can’t live without.

Fourth bullet point, Raelynn is in fact changing daycare’s. She is going to be in an in home daycare where the rules are a little more lax. At her current daycare, she can’t sleep with a blanket, she can’t eat finger foods, they will not put lotion on her without a doctors note, they will not feed her what i want unless they have a doctors note. It was just becoming a little too much for me. So, we made the decision to switch. We’ve met with the person that’s going to be taking care of her, and we are more than happy I think it will be a positive change for all parties involved.

Fifth bullet point, while my life is not actually coming to an end, I feel like it is sometimes. Like, how do you know when is the right time to sell your house? How do you know when is the right time to buy a house? Am I making the right decision to switch Raelynn’s daycare? What if I am jobless? Then we really might be homeless. There are just so many unanswered questions. Some days all of my decisions feel right, some days some of my decisions feel right, and most days all of my decisions feel wrong.

If you have followed any of my other blog posts, i’m sure you could imagine how my anxiety and stress level are…Bottom line, I want to be happy what I’m doing and I want to be able to provide for my family.

–The Kentucky Momma

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3 thoughts on “How do you know when the time is right?

  1. Amber says:

    I was in such a similar place in the first year of my son’s life. My dog died, I had a baby, I had emergency surgery 2 weeks later, I went back to my stressful job and put my son in daycare, I left my stressful job in the midst of drama and became a SAHM, my husband changed jobs, we were priced out of the city so tried to find where to live next, stayed with my folks for a month, then settled into my hometown while my husband did a 3hr round trip commute. All in the span of 9 months. There was a lot of that “up in the air” and “leap of faith” feeling. So much anxiety. Life seems to hit us with waves and we just have to ride the wave and trust things will be peaceful again. If you want to follow me on Instagram, I’m posting positive affirmations for moms like you and me @milkandsugarbaby. Peace to you!

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