Well, I took the plunge as recommended by my therapist to start CrossFit and literally, I feel dead. Y’all, I cannot move. Never have I ever been so sore in all my life. The reward for these deadly workouts, I feel a million times better after my workout. Even though it’s only been two days, I can literally feel my anxiety drown and my mood lifts. It’s amazing.
But, I really suck. And I’m really out of shape. Like, really, really out of shape. I am literally the worst one in my class. But, the best thing about CrossFit, in my opinion, is that all the moves can be scaled to your fitness level. I’m sure if I stick with it, I won’t suck anymore, but for now, my coach is helping me at least get the moves and form down and then we can work on getting to where I need to be.
My first WOD (workout of the day) on Monday was 5 burpees and 5 front squats EMOM (every minute on the minute) for 10 minutes. You would’ve thought they asked me to do 100 of each. I for real could not do 5 burpees. So, my workout was modified, so that I was doing something similar. I put my hands on a box and did the motions of a burpee, basically just not going all the way down. I was dying. I did not think I could push through it. But I did, with my coach pushing me the whole way. I felt like that 10 minutes lasted for about 4 hours. Then, Tuesday came and I went to get out of bed and I felt like I did the 100 squats instead of 50 squats. Then, Wednesday came and I thought I had done 200 squats instead of 50 squats. My whole body hurt. AND I had another work out that night. How in the hell was I going to push through another workout when I felt like dog shit?
On top of physically feeling like shit, I was having a very anxious day. I did not want to go to CrossFit at all. Any time I thought about my daughter, I instantly teared up. I felt like a bad mom for leaving her to go workout. It just weighs so heavy on me.
BUT, I did go to CrossFit and I got in another good workout that was hard as fuck and I instantly felt better. I pushed through every ache and pain and accomplished another workout. And it felt so good. Wednesday’s WOD was 3 hang cleans, 10 wall balls, and 60 jump ropes, AMRAP (as many rounds as possible) for 15 minutes. Guess what, I literally couldn’t do a wall ball. The ball’s are freaking 14 pounds!! I struggled through my first set and then my coach told me to just hold on to the ball and do the squats. Still fucking hurt, but it was much better and I could actually accomplish the moves. Jump roping? Haha, I have two fucking left feet. It was ridiculous. I only finished 6 rounds total. Most people finished between 9 and 11. So, I suck LOL. Oh well, I know I will get there.
I really hope I can stick with this because I honestly think it will help me overall in so many different areas.
When I feel better, I am a better person all around.
–The Kentucky Momma